Today was a long day for me, filled with obstacles and lots of learning that I appreciate a lot more than I know how to express on here.
I'm having troubles with healing still and can't wait to see the doctor to talk to him at the end of the month. It is hard for me to decipher what is "normal" for me now and what is "healing". I get worried that the doctors will think I'm dumb for asking so many questions, but then my best friend reminded me that every question I have is worth asking. Which is true. I need to learn as much as I can about my healing process and the new "normals" in my life.
Other lessons that I learned from him today include being brave and taking life one day at a time. I really need to work on these things-just as much as I do being patient. I spend time worrying and being concerned when in reality I just need to try and be patient and brave and take everything one step at a time. In this way, everything will work out and I won't feel a need to be scared or worried. So those are my new goals that I'll need to continue working on, but I wanted to pass his advice along to all of you--one step at a time, be brave. We can do this, we are all fighters.
So in addition to an amazing conversation, mom took me to the festival in town for a surprise walk and dinner. It was amazing to get out of the house. I just feel like I start to go crazy being stuck inside and tomorrow I am going to attempt to drive with her (only a few blocks) to see how I'm doing and how independent I can be again.
I've taken myself back off percocet (I hate the way they make me feel) but am still on my prescription motrin despite trying to avoid it.
More news on the t-shirts as I get it from the designer.
Bern Bingham: 23 year old endo warrior, founder of Knock Out Endo