My emotions are at an all time high and I'm feeling trapped and crazy inside my own head, which is never good and causes troubles. The worry about the pain and surgery is really getting to me despite trying to ignore it. Physically, I attempted to work, which is becoming harder for me to do everyday. I can't bend down and it hurts to sit and stand but I'm trying to fight through even though I have a 12/10 pain scale today (I wish I had ways to explain myself better).
My thoughts end up feeling jumbled with so much going on and often my sentences aren't complete thoughts unless I edit for a long time like I do on here. I've never really been good at words really just at rambling so the jumbled thoughts and emotions don't help the majority of people around me which makes it even worse and makes me feel guilty and sorry (I hope they realize I love them and am sorry for all this junk).
In terms of the site, I looked up a few organizations today and learned about getting lawyers to help me file the paperwork to become a non profit so that I can take the next steps towards fundraisers and being able to accept donations.
Time for bed for me
Goodnight and thanks for the support everyone