Quitting and losing aren't options for me even if I really want to and feel like I'm breaking down.
I had a crazy day at work today but was ended with an amazing customer that offered me prayers and support and allowed me to sit down which I thought was sweet (as well as her story too!). I'm at the point where I'd rather focus on others than keep talking about me and it actually annoys me when people ask me how I'm feeling because as of now nothing is getting better-in fact its getting worse.
My groin/hip hurt from yesterday's injections and my arms are bruised from bloodwork. I'm on more medicines now but hopefully they will help me until surgery. Until then I need to find ways to keep my head up either through distracting myself or through talking/writing on here.
I can't help but be worried and scared though I cannot let me control it. Sadness and worry will not overrun my life. I need to be stronger than this. I am stronger than this and I can do this.