I haven't been writing a lot lately, mostly because school has started up again and so has work. The increased stress is doing a number on my system. I am experiencing pain almost everyday as bad as before my surgery and it is discouraging and upsetting me a little more everyday along with adding doubt. I'm waiting to hear back from the doctor anxiously and hoping he'll tell me this is normal but I don't completely believe it is at this point.
I have begun testing out herbal treatments and drinking a lot of chai tea (not so sure if it helps so much as it comforts me). I got in touch with some old friends and am continuing to make new friends in the endo community. The support system is important but I find I'm feeling incapable of being me and doing what I'd like to do. I feel like a burden to friends and family that need to constantly compromise their plans and activities so that I can join them.
Today, I am planning on seeing the t-shirt designer again and placing an order so I can start to get them out to everyone. I've been getting a lot of questions about orders lately and am working as quickly as possible to get in the first bulk order in! More updates tonight hopefully, but I've been falling asleep early these days.
Bern Bingham: 23 year old endo warrior, founder of Knock Out Endo